Bianca and I won 2nd place in the Jefferson County’s Got Talent Show. The next day I went to Six Flags, had a douche guy hanging all over me and Ben decided to save me. I still can’t keep a guy for 2 seconds though. I guess it’ll only change when the right one comes along. Yeah thanks for that, btw.

As soon as my dad dropped me off at work on Saturday, he drove past a 2001 Grand Prix that was in the same spot that my moms tire on her van blew out. Destiny right? He called the guy and bought it, so now I have a gorgeous car in my drive way and it’s ALL MINE. Got the plates today, getting my licence tomorrow so I can drive to work. It’s so beautiful, I’m still deciding on a name. He was raised in a rich neighborhood, so I’m thinking Bradley or Blain or Blake. Something that you’d name a rich, hot, private school guy who plays lacrosse. We’re an odd couple, but he’s the love of my life. <3 I think we’re pretty adorable together.

Weeding through the douchebag guys has become easier. I’ve been talking to one, then figure out I really don’t like em, then move on to the next. Brooke thinks I’m a skank (which it does seem like it), but I’m only just dating around and hanging out with new guys. I’ve realized there are better people with plans and better lives ahead of them than I thought. Not every guy is a loser, but most are.

I moved my parents king size bed in my room, I’m now sleeping on clouds.

I’ve been playing guitar. I finally got a whole song written. I originally started it for a certain person then stopped for awhile, then something huge happened recently which motivated me to write the rest of my feelings out. It sucks that I’d probably never be able to sing it to him but hey, it happens.

That’s it for now! Stay classy.

-Kaytee

So after a year and 6 months it’s no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts
Never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you
Let down my guard swear to God
I’ll blow my brains in your lap
Lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I’m pleading
I’m trying to stop you from leaving
You won’t even listen so fuck it
I’m trying to stop you from breathing
I put both hands on your throat
I sit on top of you squeezing
‘Til I snap you neck like a Popsicle stick
Ain’t no possible reason I could think of to let you walk about this house
And let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks
Then I let you go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple
I told you this…

And I would’ve done anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it’s over now
It’s too late to save our love
Just promise me you’ll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star…

Hmmmm, let’s see. What’s new?

Bianca moved out today, it’s gonna be so weird without her here.  I’m happy for her though, and I love her.

The whole liking guys situation is shit. I don’t want a relationship, but I don’t want to be a damn booty call either.. Although I had a feeling he’d be like that. He just came out of the same thing I did, why would he want a girlfriend? It just kinda makes me mad when you all hang out with his friends and they ask you if you’re hooking up that night. Not cool bro. Funny thing is that I still like him. lol. Then there’s the guy who has a girlfriend, but you know you’re so much better than her.  And the guy that everyone says is a bad boyfriend. Then there’s the guy that thinks he owns you.  And the stalker that won’t take a hint.  Too. Damn. Complicated.

The only man I can truly count on is my dad. He held me while I cried about another boy. He told me to get out there and date other people, then he listened to everything I had to say about the guys in my life.  I love him unconditionally, and I’m so lucky to have him.

The other guy I can always run to is D.J. He’s always been there for me, and he’s my bestfriend.  He knew exactly how to make me smile when I’d cry to him. When I walked in Monday morning and he was on the floor, my heart stopped. I don’t know what I’d do without that kid.

Brandon…lol. He’s just my bestfriend. We’ve spent every other day of this week together. We’ve seen eachother at our worst days, but we can still accept eachother. You just gotta love him.

Page and I are friends again. I’m so freaking glad. Even though we’ve pissed eachother off so much, I still missed her. I missed peeing my pants, I missed her spending day after day at my house, I miss calling eachothers moms ‘mom’. I missed bringing out of her rock that she lived under. I love you Pagel.

I think that’s just about it.. so byeeeeeee!

-Kaytee